Art of God

Second, I want to say thank you to all who have read, and who continue to read my entries. I have to say that I am a bit surprised, a bit flattered and very humbled when I hear that someone – anyone – has read something that I wrote – and liked it. Not that I expect you not to like it, I guess I just put it up there and know that people will feel what they feel, but I really don’t expect it to affect people that much. After all, it’s only one person’s experience in a city of approximately nine million people. But, now I respect the fact that it is my experience as an Artist of God who you know personally, and who is here doing the work in Gotham that creates relevance and connection for you. This connection also creates a wonderful support for me. I am coming to realize that it truly is an honor and a responsibility to be able to communicate and connect with my friends and colleagues in such a way, and to know that I may be of help to you. I guess it’s all a part of growing up in Gotham – really growing up in Gotham… Your feed back is as encouraging as it is comforting. So, I will make every effort to write entries in our blog more frequently.

Finally, I would like to reiterate my thanks to all who conceived of, created, constructed, and who maintain our site and our blog. It is a world with which I have been unacquainted, for the most part, but with which I am necessarily developing greater familiarity and appreciation. These are important and potent tools for our work. Thank you!

And now, the news…
Things have been moving forward on many fronts. New York City is a place that is incredibly rich in many ways. Over the last month – during my absence from the blog – I have been concentrating on developing my work and different means to bring it to the public. I have developed two workshops and am currently developing two more. Three of the events will be collaborative partnerships with individual female leaders whom I have met here; one will be solo. By the end of this month, I will have given two short presentations at the weekly “Sundays for Peace” gatherings, which are held at the Chopra Center here in Manhattan (Chopracenterny.com). A Men’s group is in the offing as well. The workshops, presentations, and the Men’s group all focus on bringing awareness and balance to the feminine and masculine energy within ourselves, as well as in relationship to one another. In these projects, balance and collaboration are exemplified by the cultures of Nature. The healing that this creates supports female leaders, balanced male leaders, and helps all to return to the Unity of Nature. I hope to set up a simple website shortly in support of these new endeavors.

I have begun to remember my somatic self and how much I enjoy exploring movement. Some friends of mine have introduced me to movement opportunities in New York, and I am planning to attend the National Dance Therapists’ Conference in Austin next year, though I am not a Dance Therapist, and not do I intend to become one.

Feng Shui has come to my attention as a means to balance energy on physical and energetic levels in our environments. It is a practice which is tremendously supportive of who we are. It also has applications in terms of understanding and balancing the energies of different geographic areas and the people who live therein. I’m quite excited regarding the potential of this particular area of Feng Shui in relation to multiculturalism, international relations, and Unity.

My efforts to join the United Nations have been hampered by my own trauma (of all things!). I have been working consistently with Brooks to develop my ability to come fully inside physical and emotional trauma (mother/father and lineage) and then allowing it to dissolve. I have been working with this situation in order to be able to recognize and then act upon the opportunities that are being made available to me. This is my priority for the moment. It appears to be yet more urgent when I take into account the fact that my financial reserves are extremely low, and opportunities for positive cash flow do not appear to be imminent on the horizon. This is the edge – or at least it is mine: how to be who I am, remain present, not give myself away, and correctly discern what opportunities are being presented and what positive action to take (as opposed to “doing”) to be fully responsible in the 3-D world. This I find to be especially challenging considering my financial situation, and being in New York City. As mentioned above, there is a huge population here of nine million (probably more, energetically), and the balance of energy seems to favor the masculine paradigm of “doing” and “producing” well and truly inside the box, rather than “being” outside the box.

My questions are these. How much is “covering your butt” and “planning for possibilities” giving yourself away, and how much of it is taking full responsibility for who you are? Should I be applying for jobs as funds continue to dwindle (doing?), or should I fully & totally devote my time and energy to working on uncovering and healing trauma (being?) in preparation for opportunities, that may exist even now, that I may not recognize. What is the balance here, if any? Look, I am ready to work. I have been healing and working on myself for over six months here in Gotham, and I am jonesing for my work in the U.N. I am increasingly aware and determined that I have not come 2,500 miles across this great and beautiful land to do the exact same thing I did 2,500 miles ago.

I believe that on this planet, in this day and age, one cannot sit in the cave for the entirety of one’s lifetime. Siddhartha did not do that even in his time (not that I am anywhere close to his level of presence). The monks in Myanmar prove that this holds true today, by choosing to leave the Monasteries to face down far greater physical, emotional and spiritual challenges than I shall ever face. I feel that my birth in, and growth from Matilija, to Santa Barbara, to New York City is complete, for all intents and purposes. I choose take full responsibility for who I am, with neither condition nor reservation.

I’ll be attending the first full AoG NY class in its entirety this mornin. My experience is that once one is committed to a class, issues will come up to be cleared sometimes weeks in advance. This may be what is happening here. My sense is that this will be a powerful catalyst not only for me, but for other attendees as well. I look forward to it, and am confident that it will allow me to move to a new level of experience which will be beneficial to me and to those who choose to collaborate with me. I’ll let you know, what happened in my next entry.

…And now for sports….
“Put me in Coach, I’m ready to play!!”

Don’t forget to have fun out there, fellow Artists of the Wild!

See you soon, back here in the blogoshpere!

Aloha